Saturday, May 31, 2008

A Day Late and More Than a Dollar Short...

This month has had many ups and downs... and as per usual, my job situation is still giving me a rather lovely stomach ulcer... I shall name him Frederick. Anyways, while the work is really fun and rewarding at leap frog right now. Not knowing if it will still be there the following week is taking it's toll on my morale. And while most of my friends are just now getting benefits at their shiny new staff positions, I'm left wondering why all I can find are non-committal companies offering work that just evaporates before it starts... Or freelance jobs pretending to take an interest in me, then suddenly ceasing to return my calls. If anyone out there has a suggestion for what the hell I'm doing wrong in my career, let me know. I feel like I'm back in the teenage dating scene and I'm sincerely inching closer and closer to the conclusion that I'm not cut out for the art biz.
I'd like to take this moment to blame my previously described malaise for why I have neglected to post this month's lady. She's almost done, I just haven't been up to finishing her in the past few days. I've either been super busy, or super exhausted. But I'm sure no one really gives a shit anyway, it's just a painting.

2 comments:

Eric Royal said...

i give a shit my friend. i give a shit, i was wondering, if you would get it done on time. i feel the same why, i just want to be a cog in the art machine but they all already have their pieces and don't need an extra cog, so here i sit, trying to get my shit together and pray that when i do, it will be good enough. guh, it is quite disheartening, but i still love it and so i persist. it will happen at some point my friend, remember you are only 23 and have a life time ahead of you to be jaded and disillusioned, but you also have a life time with which to achieve your goals. chin up dude, if nothing happens for either of us in 5 or 10 years (when ever old student loans are paid) we'll take out even bigger business loans and do our own thing. or start smuggling diamonds or something. keep it real dude, and who knows we might all be dead tomorrow if that Swedish supercolider creates a rogue particle that will destroy the planet.

Anonymous said...

All I can say is if you love what your doing, keep at it. My art still has yet to land me a job. Every single place I've applied to turned me down. As a result I'm (a freelancer too) barely surviving. Most of my freelance jobs come from my side hobby photography. Even though I've got a BA in Animation, it seems meaningless because it hasn't really gotten me anywhere. I would have preferred on the job experience instead. And yet I still do what I love. So stick with it. Eventually it will come around because your passion is in it.